unpavemypaths | open post

[It's a nice thought, but all she really wants is for him to stay. It doesn't even have to be at this age, though she'd take it if she could, separate it out or find a way to make him stay. She's never met a version of him she didn't care about. Even when it's not like this, when she has to be careful and remember to keep her distance. But it's not the time to think about that; she doesn't want to lose what time they do have.

She shifts under his hands as she settles on her back, squirming and restless, eager. Clearly never trying to get away, arching up into the feeling of that mark with another noise, louder, breathless. It's exactly what she wanted, something to last for a while, to make it feel a little more real. Her hands are still looking to touch, fingers sweeping over his temple, down to his neck, eyes fluttering shut despite herself.]

[Once he’s done with the first mark, the skin red, a bruise showing up already, he moves to the other side and makes another. It gives him a thrill to think she might feel them whenever she wears pants in the next few days, neither of them fading until he’s long gone, stuck somewhere else in time.

The thrill gives way to something he doesn’t want to think about that, so he moves again, pulling at the waistband of her shorts, pushing all of it down over her hips, her butt. He presses a kiss to the inside of her thigh as her clothes pass by it, to her knee, her shin, her ankle, until everything is off. Then he follows the same trail back up, pressing a few more kisses to the inside of her thigh. It’s obvious where he is headed, but he’s taking his time, teasing her first, his hand rubbing soothing circles into her other leg.]

I thought you were in a rush.

[It's not really a complaint, just teasing, playfulness tempered a little by the way she can't hide the eagerness in her voice. She'll take whatever he wants to give her at this point, she just wants, failing to bite back a whine as she shifts a little again, legs falling a little more open encouragingly.]

I can go slower. [He teases her back, smiling gently as he nips at the skin of her inner thigh.

He’s never travelled before during sex, maybe it’s something about how his brain reacts that makes it impossible. He’d like that anyway, if he was able to take his time, really make her squirm.]

[She starts to reply and then falters into a groan, leg tensing and relaxing again at the bite. Laughs a little breathlessly instead, fingers running through his hair.] Whatever you want. [It's a light echo, but it's also genuine, a smile audible in her voice.]

That a promise, Genie?

[He presses a soft kiss to the spot he just bit before running his tongue over it.] We might here awhile in that case. I hope you don’t have any plans.

It can be.

[Somehow she doubts she'd complain about any of it, really.]

Not tonight. [She's not sure how she's going to convince herself to get out of bed in the morning if he hasn't traveled by then, but that's a later question. For now?] I'm all yours.

You’re always mine. [He says it like a promise but there is a hint of a challenge in his voice, not towards her, but anyone who dares to try to get between them again.

To prove his point, he pulls her a little closer, finally pressing his mouth between her legs, his tongue moving against her. His confidence makes him more enthusiastic than normal, as does the fact that it’s been so long since he’s gotten to have her like this. He doubts anyone else could make her feel this way, tries even harder to make it so that no one else ever could.]

Yeah, I am-- [Her voice wavers, desperate, already having trouble catching her breath as she arches against him.] Fuck, Sasha.

[One leg wraps around him, trying to keep him there, even knowing he doesn't want to leave. It's been a long time, and he knows her body too well; it doesn't take long until she's panting, fingers catching at the sheets as she squirms under him, a string of little wordless noises falling out of her, broken up irregularly by his name.]

[He keeps moving, his tongue going faster, deeper, every noise and moan, every time she says his name just making him more excited. He works her over until she climaxes and even then doesn’t stop, doesn’t give her a break, if anything he just doubles his efforts, adding his fingers, pressing one into her and moving it in tandem with his tongue.

Until she tells him to stop, he doesn’t intend to. She told him he could have whatever he wants so he’s going to take it, over and over again until she can’t think of anything but him.]

[The second comes on just as fast, almost a surprise, no chance to calm down. The moan that comes from her when she realizes he's not stopping sounds wrecked already, and she moves to sit up halfway after a second. She's flushed, shifting and still clearly turned on, even as she's reaching down to press at his shoulder.]

Wait-- [She still can't catch her breath, and it takes a second before she can say anything else, just panting, words momentarily caught in her throat as she watches him.] I don't want it to be too much before you can fuck me.

[As soon as she tells him to wait, he does, moving his head to the side and leaning against her thigh, he takes the moment she needs to try and catch his own breath, waiting patiently for her to continue. When she finally does, he groans, his hips wiggling in anticipation.] Yeah —- okay, yeah. I want that too.

[He sounds breathless himself, clearly turned on just from going down on her, and hops up, making quick work of wiggling out of his pants so he can finally join her on the bed.

Even just the few seconds without touching her feel like too much, as soon as he’s able his body is pressing in close, his lips crashing against hers in a blistering kiss.]

[She's already reaching to draw him in, a leg looped around his as she presses up into the kiss. Even just the brief separation has her feeling halfway desperate to have him close again, tongue sliding into his mouth, hands running down his back. It still feels the way nothing ever has with anyone else, electric and intense.]

Can't tell you how many times I thought about you here. [Mumbled between kisses, fingers pressing into his skin. She'll feel guilty for admitting it at some point, probably when it's some older version of him again. For right now it just feels right that he should know that she never stopped.]

[A moan slips passed his lips as she kisses him, his hips rocking against hers gently, feeling that same desperation, that same need to be closer.]

Yeah? How do I compare to your imagination? [His response is cocky but the crack in his voice halfway through betrays the way that makes him feel. It’s not that he doesn’t trust her, he just isn’t good at being vulnerable, at sharing his feelings, and now certainly isn’t the time for it, even if time is in short supply. He just hopes he has a chance to tell her later. If not, hopefully the way his lips press a little harder tell her what his words can’t, and the way his hand reaches for hers, their fingers intertwining for a moment lets her know that he feels it too.

He wishes again that he could stay, stop time and just live in this moment, be with her and only her. His hand squeezes hers one more time before he moves it to her thigh, pulling her leg higher up on his hip so he has better access, groaning as he pushes into her, moving slow since it’s been awhile for him too. He wants to make it last, wants to give her this at least, wants to make it count.]

Much better. No contest.

[It's a breathless answer, holding tight to his hand. Trying to keep it light, but there's a depth there that she can't help showing through, an ache from all that time wishing for it.

She doesn't want to drag this down, though, not now, not when it could change at any time. So she lets him take his hand back even if it's a little reluctant, tries to let herself be distracted again, to feel every bit of the way they're pressed together. She leans up just enough to press a line of messy kisses against his jaw and neck, moaning against his skin as he finally presses into her completely, loud and eager, nipping at his throat.]

[It feels so good, so much after so long. It shakes something loose inside his chest, a tightness he’s been holding onto, it almost comes out as a laugh, but it’s more like a gasp, so happy in this moment, it feels unreal, all those nights spent dreaming about this and now he’s here. He’s reluctant to move, even as his hips grind against her, any small change feels like it could destroy everything.]

Imogene. [Her name comes out before he can prepare for it, laced with far too much emotion, not her nickname but her full name, desire and adoration and love clear within it. It’s too overwhelming, all of his want burning him up from the inside, so prominent he could almost swear she can feel it too.

After a few moments, his willpower gives out and he finally moves, pulling out so he can push back in, his lips pressing wherever they can, his hand still gripping her thigh as his hips repeat the motion again.]

[She doesn't need him to say everything; she's always been good at understanding, and there's so much there, just in one word. She could live off the sound of her name in his mouth, she could give so much up, if it just meant she got to have this. Just for a little while longer, at least.

She presses her lips to the underside of his jaw with a soft sigh. It turns into a hitching cry when he moves, leg flexing under his hand as she arches against him, pressing in to kiss his mouth messily as he withdraws again.]

Sash, Sasha, sweetheart, fuck-- [Words just keep spilling out of her, a breathless chant, his name on her lips over and over. Her hand slides down his arm to cover his, the other tangled in his hair, moving with him as naturally as if they've barely been apart at all.]

[It shouldn’t be a surprise to him that she knows exactly what he needs, she’s always been good at that, at telling his emotions even before he knows them. He’s glad that hasn’t changed, even with the distance between them.

He stays quiet as they move together, building a rhythm, distracted by the sounds out of her mouth, not wanting to miss any of them, it’s only when he can’t hold back any longer that a whine breaks free, his kisses becoming sloppier, his hips stuttering, he’s close, that fire inside him burning outward, spreading through his limbs —-] Imogene, fuck, I’m…I’m gonna —-

[He tries to hold out for a little bit longer, his hand moving from her thigh to between her legs again, pressing against her, offering himself to her inside and out, still focused on her even as he chases his own climax.]

[It's a slower build this time, and all the more intense for it, almost too much for all that it's wanted. Her breath catches when his hand moves between them, drawing a low noise out of her, clutching at him tightly.]

M'with you, come on, babe. [It's a coaxing plea, her voice tight with need. She draws him into another uncoordinated kiss, gasping his name against his mouth as he draws her over the edge again.]

[He tips over right after her, her whole body going tight as she slips over the edge, it’s enough to get him there too, a moan on his lips, his forehead pressed against hers.

It takes him a while to come down, for the stars to move from behind his eyes and his heart to settle. He stays wrapped up in her as he waits, not wanting to move even an inch. They are on borrowed time now, at least they got to have this.]

We’re too good at that, Genie. That must be why we were forced apart. [Once he’s able to think again, he makes a joke to try to ease some of the fear seizing his chest, all of it moving back in once his desire has cleared. He’s not ready to say goodbye. He just has to keep hoping he’ll get lucky this time, and maybe get a few days with her. Or at least the rest of the night.]

[She's not making any moves to get away from him. If anything she's keeping him there, a leg still hitched up around his waist and arms tight around him as they both calm down, her breathing finally starting to slow. She doesn't want to let go. God, she's not ready to let go.]

It's a good theory. [She does her best to laugh in response, but he's not the only one feeling everything else creeping back in. Guilt because she doesn't know if he had a good reason to stay away, fear that it's going to be the last time he's here. Even anger, somewhere deep down where she can barely admit it to herself, because she needed him and he just left.

She tries to laugh, and it breaks halfway through into something closer to a sob, pressing her lips together and her eyes shut tight as she tries to hold it back. The last thing she wants to do is ruin this, especially knowing it can slip away at any moment.]

[As much as she knows him, he also knows her, he just can’t always tell what people need the same way she can. This time it’s fairly easy, his arms holding onto her a little tighter as soon as that heartbreaking noise leaves her mouth, his hands rubbing up and down along her back, lips pressing into her hair, along her temple, her forehead.]

I’ll be back, Genie, I promise. I know where you are now and that professor won’t mind getting me tickets. As soon as I have control again, I’ll come back to you.

[He means it, there isn’t a single thing that could stop him from coming back, the problem is that he doesn’t know the next time he’ll have control. For all he knows it could be another few years. He hopes with everything in him that it isn’t, that he’ll be back soon, that she won’t be alone again.]

[If it's that simple. If he's in control again while he still can manage that. If some other version of him doesn't just -- change his mind, at some point, up and leave again. She still doesn't know why he did it in the first place, who's to say that it won't happen again? If it doesn't turn out that he's angry enough at her for letting it happen to put precautions in place, to stop himself from getting back, she doesn't doubt that the older version of him could figure it out if he really felt he had to. If he doesn't find his soulmate and fall in love before the next time he gets a chance to come back to her.

She wants to believe it so badly, though.]

I know. [Her voice is still thick from the tears that she's refusing to let out, and she gives a shaky laugh, her hand coming up to touch his cheek gently. Trying to ignore the worries that want to start swarming her.] I'm just -- glad you're here.

[He frowns, his hands still rubbing against her back. He’s never seen someone who was glad, look so heartbroken, but he nods. Maybe her saying it is really just her trying to believe it, and he can’t blame her for that.

He leans forward to kiss her, taking the opportunity while he still can, staying very close when he pulls back again.]

I’m kind of mad at you, you know. [There’s a tease in his voice that says he isn’t being serious, that he’s setting up another joke, once she responds he replies.] You didn’t tell me that I become a giant nerd…I was wearing a matching pajama set this morning, Genie. A striped matching pajama set.

[It gets her to smile, genuine even if it's still small, nuzzling another kiss against his cheek.] Sounds cute. You should have taken a picture. And what's wrong with being a giant nerd, huh?

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